Anniversary

There are many different kinds of anniversaries; the beginning of new job, the anniversary of a death or divorce, and then there is the wedding anniversary.  Tomorrow is our wedding anniversary, our 9th year together and we march on to our 10th anniversary next year. 

I have been divorced, once through childhood and then in adulthood.  Obviously the childhood divorce was when my parents split up and divorced.  That was a painful and chaotic time in our lives.  Then I was divorced as an adult, 15 years ago in September, I believe.  The anniversary date escapes me, I use to know it.  I have been married now 9 years tomorrow, June 29.  While this is a happy and joyous time for me, my sister's divorce is final today.  It gives me pause to think on this.  I remember what it was like when my divorce was final, all the emotions involved, and I am sure this is true for my sister.  While there is relief that it is over, it also feels a little like a death.  You once cared for a person only to not care, how do you turn it off?  There is so much anger and sadness involved and then comes the roller coaster ride, the grief machine.   

God never stops caring.  His love is continuous and final.  No matter what we do, no matter who we are, no matter how bad we feel about ourselves, God loves us and as my husband always says, "God loves you and there's not a doggone thing you can do about it."   This gives me comfort beyond belief.  God loves me no matter what and there is not a thing I can do about it.   Our time here on earth is so short.  There are many life-lessons in the meantime that I am learning.  My trust grows every day.  I have given up worry for Lent, but my Lent continues into the quiet time of summer and will continue to grow into the busy time of Advent.  There are many good things happening in my life right now, I hold onto the good times.  I thank God for giving me what I need.  I needed a job, and now I have it at our church part time.  We need a vacation, a time for renewal of strength and energy, a time for us to be together, and our church has given us 10 days' time.   I have everything I need.  I have food in the refrigerator, I have furniture to sit upon, I have clothes to wear, a car to get us to and fro, enough money for gas, and a husband who loves me.  I have what I need, thank you God for everything. 

Thank you Donald for 9 years of wedded bliss, for 9 years of happiness, for 9 years of loving me, being patient with me, and for wanting to be with me and see the world together.  I love you much my husband.  I could not have asked for a better partner in life.  Thank you God for giving me my husband and thank you for loving me. 
Posted by Anna